"And I don't want the world to see me,
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand,
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am"
"And you can't fight the tears that ain't comin,
All the moment of truth in your lies,
When everything feels like the movies,
Ya, you bleed just to know you're alive..."
Today was the first time I watched City of Angels. I didn't know what to expect and neither did I expect this song. For some reason, I thought there was another song in this movie that never played and was pleasantly surprised when this one did. One of my favorite songs, I now understood what it meant and how it could mean so many more things. Definitely an interesting watch for the heart! Makes you question and wonder....and wonder and question...those simple things in life that we take for granted...makes us think of our struggles and the many things that we choose to ignore...the many things that we struggle to come to terms with...the many things that we grapple with on a daily basis....but it also makes us think about the simple things in life...the things that make life worth living...the things that make life so special....the things that make us human....and the things that only humans have....
Food for thought...or rather exercise for thought....five minutes later I was pulling away at my ergometer...guilty for not waking up early enough in the morning to finish my workout...on the other hand, thankful for the order of events...allowing my mind to literally wander to the heavens and back while I rhythmically pulled at the handle of the ergometer.
The sweat mixed with the pain gave a strange sense of pleasure and satisfaction...a high that only exercise could give....a fulfillment that only physical strain could deliver!!! For this feeling, I wake up every morning...for this feeling, I drag my tired body out of bed and pull on my sneakers...for this feeling, I go through the pain and the strain at the end of a hard day.......for nothing as wonderful as the oxymoronic pleasurable pain was unleashed from Pandora's box....
Tomorrow is a new day, where I wake up looking forward to feeling this pain all over again...looking forward to my screaming muscles and my aching lungs....looking forward to the meter counting down and the time ticking away....looking forward to the rhythmic spinning of the flywheel...stroke after stroke....minute after minute....the small things in life make life worth living and the angels watching are really missing out on something special!
